Power of Thought

6 Apr

So, it has come to my attention, via life, that if I think well, I do well. Positive things come easier to me when I am in the right vibration. That means that I care about what thoughts and beliefs I am having. It stands to reason that if you think about something long enough, you will eventually believe it. That is why I care about what I think. It isn’t necessary for me to look very far to find the proof of that thought process. All that is necessary is for me to look immediately around me.

For example, for some weird reason I get on some tangent about someone else’s problems and how they should be acting or not. I have those very private conversations in the recesses of my mind to which not a single soul, except mine, is aware of. So, on and on it goes. I leave the house to go do an errand or possibly visit someone and lo and behold I get stuck in a mad traffic jam. HA! I told you things sucked. I have to laugh at this because I created that very negative circumstance all on my own.  And, I did it all without a single thought as to the fact that it was the very negativity I was propagating.

On the flipside of that coin is me feeling really great, deliberately enjoying the day, and boom! the day goes beautifully. I even come across very nice strangers. As it were, I get a nice card in the mail and my son brings me a nice present. I also created this for myself. However, the difference is that I paid attention to my mind and what it was trying to think about. If it started going down memory lane of some kind, I changed the tracks upon which it was wanting to ride. I chose to think different so I could be different and so my day would run smoother.

It has become a practice for me to be cognizant of the thoughts running through my mind. I am more intentional because I want more for myself. I like the nicer and kinder things in life. They feel so much better than the alternative. I have an expectation of good times and things in my life and I receive them. I could also expect the opposite and would surely receive that, too. It’s just a matter of choosing. I am not saying those habits of thinking are easy to break, but I am saying it is possible. I have done a great deal of work on my own thoughts. And, whew! what a relief!!!

I spent many years wondering why so many crappy things happened ‘to me’. And, believe me, there were some crappy things. I finally came to a place in life that I thought what the hell, and I began making changes. I read good information, I wrote a lot, searched a magnanimous amount, and in time,…I began to see that things were changing. Of course, I would revert to old behavior and thinking, then finally jump off that merry-go-round. I have done that more than imaginable really.

We humans can be a bit stubborn, so if you have just started your journey or have been on a purposeful one, be sure to be kind to yourself. Be ok with the times that feel less than what is expected. We will have those times that we need to learn something or know new things. Be as graceful through those times because it will definitely pay off in due time. The very most important, love yourself through the seemingly lesser moments and trust that all is well. Think of something pleasant and expand on that to move away from the problems in you mind. It may take a while but is well worth the effort!


Hanging Out With Alzheimer’s

5 Apr

Years ago we found out my father had Alzheimer’s. It was a surprise, to say the least. It was also rather disturbing. His behavior became very peculiar in that he was behaving in ways that were just not him. It was difficult because, at this time, we didn’t really know that is what he had. We started to suspect something to do with the brain. He was finally officially diagnosed with Alzheimer’s.

I think this is the biggest trick played on our elders, really. It takes their ability to rationalize normally and they forget immediate things. They ask over and over the same things because they don’t have that part of their brain operating. Eventually, this moves into all aspects like long term memory, who they know, where they live, what they are doing from one moment to the next, and who they are them self. It is very heart breaking and sad. From this alone, the grieving process begins of the loss of a loved one. That is just the first grief process.

I have been lucky enough to have only gone through that part. I still have my dad. Yeah, he doesn’t remember a lot, asks the same questions over and over, is demanding, bossy, confused, wets his self sometimes, forgets who he is and forget who I am, at times. I have to add that he is also very upbeat most of the time, funny, still an excellent Gin Rummy player (and beats me often!), and enjoys being around his kids. He will sometimes not sleep because he thinks we are only joining him for a short visit. We are really here often. I think it has helped him greatly.

I have to be honest in saying that when this 24 hour care for my father began, I was not the best at it. In fact, I was probably the worst because I couldn’t see him as having a disease. It took me quite a long time to differentiate my dad from Alzheimer’s dad. It has been one of the biggest learning processes I have ever come across. Alzheimer’s can be very confusing and mind boggling to the care takers. It was to me, anyway. I guess some people deal with it better than others. I never was the nurse type.

I had to learn a better way than being angry and frustrated with Alzheimer’s. It made me feel awful because I would be short with my dad. It was difficult to deal with the disconnect of his mind from reality and what was really going on around him. It drove me crazy, to be honest. I hated it and I resented having to be in the position of care taker on any level. It took me quite some time to get through this. I still had resentment from childhood and when my dad would behave in certain ways, it was like I was a kid again. I had great grief over this.

What I now think is that all of that was necessary to make me get over and move on from all that resentment. I am thankful for that now. I am grateful that there has been enough time to do that with my dad. I have grown to love him in a new and healthier way.

I now enjoy knowing I have to go to his house and take care of him. I take care of him five to six days a week. I am with him for six hours for four days and eight hours for one. Sometimes, to fill in, I work six. Anyway, I decided that I needed to change my attitude about my situation with my dad and everything got better. I began to make a point to think of my time with him as a gift of time. A gift that I will not always have. I learned to hear him differently. I stopped thinking he was trying to control me. I now look at it as he needs to be certain ways to feel like he has control over something. I don’t care anymore if that thing is me. I only care that he has any kind of grip on any kind of reality that gives him some peace of mind.

The bottom line of all the problems with Alzheimer’s, the frustration, anger, sadness, or the loathing of the disease can be cured with a mind adjustment on the part of the care taker. Not that this will work for everyone. Not everyone needs to be in this position. This is for those that are and are going through the same symptoms I did. It is not the easiest thing to change but it can be done. I have grown greatly from this experience.

I have grown a great amount of patience with my dad and with other situations. I have become more kind because I have had to become more kind to my dad. I have become more easy to be around for my dad, hence easier for others. It pays to make positive changes for those that we love. It has changed me on many levels. I will always be grateful to my dad for many things not mentioned, but I will be especially grateful for the time I have spent with my dad while he has had Alzheimer’s. It has made me a better person.

I have found a new way of thinking and it began with reprogramming my mind. I searched the internet and came across many avenues but the one that stuck out is located at [http://www.enlightenmentandhealth.com] I am very grateful to have been given the opportunity to change.

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Love Thy Self

5 Apr


Sometimes when in the throes of some kind of drama, be it relational, financial, work, family, kids, emotional,…we forget the one most important thing. That is to take care of one’s self. Because of all that may be happening and our mind might be preoccupied with the subject at hand,…we lose sight of the most important person to us. Our SELF. This is unfortunate because it generates so much negativity into our lives. When we don’t place our self in the number one status, we lose the ability to take care of those around us. How could we if we can’t even be good to our own person? Some people think that giving begins with others. That is a great concept, but if our own person isn’t intact…that is all it is, a concept. Not a viable one, either. It has too many holes in it to be solid. In my mind the holes take the form of low self esteem, self worth, self love, some lack of some kind. It seems to me it is kind of like trying to ‘look’ like one is trying to ‘be’ this giving or whatever type of person. In reality, as the saying goes, ‘ you can’t love someone else until you love yourself ‘, still stands on all fronts. So, the bottom line is to learn to be good to one’s self first. When, even in the midst of life’s trials and tribulations, one is able to take care of their self spiritually, mentally, physically, and financially, then there is something to offer others. Love

In every person’s life they get to a point that they want to share their life with another. This usually begins at a pretty young age. There is great hope and promise upon meeting a new person no matter what age. But, when we are young, we aren’t as tainted as we might be when time goes by. For myself, after many years of heart breaks and hurt feelings, this has become something I wouldn’t want to jump into right away with another. It has also caused other consequences in my mental make-up. I got to a point of not wanting anyone in my life ever and wouldn’t give a man the time of day. This became a pretty lonely spot to be in after some time.

I have now been single for quite a long time and have found that feeling reemerging again. The feeling of wanting someone important to me in my life. That someone I can confide in and share interests and live life together. I am interested in finding that ‘right guy’ or the guy that is fitting for me and me for him. I think in order to get what you want, you have to become that type of person that has what you want to offer. For me, that began with working on my attitude and my thinking. Well, the thinking part does dictate the attitude, really. If we think negative, we will have a bad attitude and if we have positive thinking, we are bound to have a good attitude. So, that lead me to my first step of ‘man-hating’ recovery, if you will. Honestly, I never have hated men but my stand-off behavior might have told others a different story.

It was really a beautiful awakening and very liberating because just as misery loves company,…positive thinking and behavior also instigates more positive things. I felt like I had awoke from a bad dream of feeling like crap and feeling lonely. I did not yet have a man but when I decided to change myself, so I could be the best me possible, great feelings about myself started to happen. I no longer had that feeling of dread that I had grown used to waking up to. I stopped having so many down moments controlling my living life. My true, happy, loving, kind, giving, grateful self started to be more prevalent in my life. I began feeling good about me. Now, here was a starting place!

I began feeling more solid with my happiness. I became happy to be with myself. I stopped the beating the self with a club syndrome. Is there such a thing, really? Well, if there isn’t, there should be because it sure felt like it was real. But, you have to know that anything you focus on is actually real to the person doing the focusing.

Now, here I was having a good ol’ time being with myself. I wanted more and I became open to meeting someone. I opened my being to the possibility. In doing that, I also became a little more happier. I found more of me in the opening up process and got to know myself a little bit more. It has been quite the experience getting to know myself and accepting me in the process, for just being me. It has truly become one of my best life’s experiences and enlightening, to say the least.

In truth, I am still open to meeting someone. I haven’t met ‘the one’, yet. I am not out there in the world throwing myself at it, but I am open to it. The great thing that I found is myself. When I became willing to be open to meeting someone, I met the most important person I know…ME. I am grateful for that and for all the blessings that have been a by-product of that search. I am a lucky woman and I know I will meet a great person because of it.

So, the bottom line, I found, is when deciding to try to be with someone else, it is important to find yourself first. I think in the search there are so many great things to learn. I also think that each person has to find those wonderful things their self because we are all different and have so many unique traits. It is a great experience to find one’s self and gives the greatest feelings towards the self. Love Thy Self would be the watch words.

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Self Responsibility

5 Apr

You know, we all make choices in life and with those choices come responsibility. And, just because we make a decision about this or that does not mean we can expect everyone around us to participate in those choices. So, it would be my belief that it is imperative to be fully aware of the decisions and the consequences of those decisions, realizing that it is our own and not the responsibility of others to rectify or accommodate those things we opted for. And, when others don’t follow what we WANT doesn’t make them the bad guy. It only means those choices should be owned by the one who made them. It also doesn’t mean they are no longer our friend. It does mean that when making a decision it is imperative to know as best we can the long term ramifications of that decision. We must also know that others have to make their own choices and that we won’t always be on board to suffer their poor choices, either. So, when confronted on either account of two sides of the coin, don’t allow guilt make you do what you don’t want to do. And, we must always remember that our choices are our own responsibility.

Puppy Love

5 Apr

Puppy Love

I just looked over at my two pekignese and noticed them laying next to each other snuggled up. It was so precious. Their names are Ruby and Riley and they are brother and sister. Riley is a chocolate brown and white. He has big dark brown eyes and his face has a dark brown velvet look to it. His eyes are rather big for the size of his body. He is loving and easy-going. Ruby is a red and white color. She is a bundle of energy and also has eyes too big for her body. She is very funny and not as loving as her brother. She is a more stand-off kind of dog. Upon walking up to either dogs they will roll on their back expecting a belly rub. And, anytime Ruby sees that I have food, she is at my heals expecting her fair share. Lastly, and rather precious, is when Girl, the Akita, is laying around, Ruby and Riley will go over to her and love on her by licking her face and trying to lick in her ears. Girl isn’t always up for that, though.
Anyway, what I started out thinking about was the love these two dogs were showing each other when I looked over at them. I just thought if people were more inclined to give to one another in the same way that it would be a wonderful thing. It would make being alive just a little more easier knowing that this simple love is alive. People wouldn’t have to have their guards up so much. Playing and running around with each other would be the exercise for the day as it is for Ruby and Riley. Kissing each other just to show the love and rolling around then landing on their back to get a hug. What a day that would be. Once tiring of all this activity, simply picking a spot on the floor to doze off and dream of puppy things. That would be so nice, wouldn’t it?

What You Think About, You Bring About

5 Apr


What we think is what we become. It doesn’t matter if we live in a world of negativity or if we have never-ending positive thoughts. Whatever those thoughts are will eventually manifest into our daily lives. So, take a serious look around yourself and you will see exactly how you think. If what you find is something enjoyable and brings happiness, then my hat is off to you. You have managed to master a big secret that doesn’t always come so easy for others, including myself. I have done just that. I have looked around and didn’t like what I saw, so I have been on a mission to change the way I think and feel about things. I have chosen this because I want to bring good things to myself and those around me. I have been on this ‘mission’ for over six months. A really wonderful thing happened last week. I had been thinking about receiving presents, just to see if this stuff really works. Well, I’ll be darned if my niece had put together a present for me and texted me that she had. A couple of days later she brought me a present! It was so cool to have someone just, out of the clear blue, think of me. What she gave me was a picture of my three kids and myself in a frame that says “Family” across the top. It was really amazing because she took the picture off of Facebook and then she printed it. I thought that was such a fun present. I can also attest that learning to change yourself and your thinking does do amazing things. I no longer wake up dreading the day. I actually look forward to the morning. What a great feeling that is. I also feel like there is a true future in front of me versus this empty kind of nothing I had normally felt. I am still at the beginning of learning new and wonderful things but feel very grateful for having found the things I read for making those changes. I thank God, the Universe, the Light for bringing me to a better place of thought and I thank myself for putting in the time for making these changes.

about me & why I am here!

5 Apr

Well, that is a loaded subject,…who I am. Honestly, I have been many things in my lifetime. I am a mother of three children, a sister, daughter, a teacher and friend. I think you get the point. I have been a motorcycle enthusiast, a Golden Glove boxer, rock climber, artist, pipefitter and welder. I am also a rehabber, a gardener, kayaker and sailor. Lastly, I am an amazing cook and gardener.  I have covered the most of it, I believe.

Those are the things I have done in life, which doesn’t answer the real question of who I am. I am a spiritual being working through the life experience. I meditate almost every day, but not perfectly. I am amidst a career change, or probably just quitting my old job of pipefitting and welding to pursue other interesting things. I decided at 52, I better get on it.

I am a tenacious woman changing her stars to live the rest of my life doing what I want. I have concluded that there is no better time than the present to pursue new dreams and aspirations. I am devoted to my Higher Self in that I am honoring me and my dreams of getting the most out of life while I am here. I am devoted to my development and I believe that requires me stepping out of my comfort zone.

In light of those statements, I have decided to travel, blog, and photograph the experience and share it with whoever wants to join me. I have lived a great deal of life in the short years I have been here and figured that I could offer perspective to those who need or want a taste of my flair for thinking. I believe that sometimes people need a good listener with objectivity and I am that gal!

I just read about tags and I am still unsure of what one I would use and how to implement it into my blog.

life advice?


career changing

4 Apr
career CHANGE!

I have been a construction worker for more than 23 years. I have come to a place in my life that I wanted something more. I was unable to expand in my career with the exception of moving from apprentice to journeyman. (or journeywoman, if you will) I had decided I wanted to be in a new career by time I was 50 which has long passed me by. Long passed is relative, really, as I am only 52 now. But, needless to say, the change needed to happen for several reasons.

As we all know, working in the man’s world can be quite challenging. The fact, for me, has been that I have been stuck for a very long time. I have been a journeyman for about 18 years. The option to run work, which is being a foreman, general foreman, or even superintendent, has not been an option for me in my industry. My world is very much governed by the oldest system we have, I believe. Women are not placed in the positions of authority, for one reason or another. I really don’t know those reasons. Of course, I could speculate about those reasons, but none would really enable me to make my point any better.

So, I came to the conclusion a long time ago and with a lot of kicking and screaming that I needed to have more control in my life relative to work. I also needed to be appreciated more and to have the ability to expand. Finally, after many years, I realized it wasn’t going to happen on the job. I came to the realization that I would have to create that for myself. I searched and searched for some type of ‘J-O-B’ that I could turn to in order to expand on my desires. I ALWAYS came up with the same results. NOTHING! NOTHING! NOTHING!

I just decided to move on! The first place I started was to stop allowing going back to be an option. Believe me, when there aren’t proper funds in the kitty, bills still coming in, and the uncertainty is certainly scary, at best. I had a lot of mind work to do on myself so I could accomplish the move and successfully realize the things I want in my life. The process can be longer than not, but to arrive at the stopping the chaos point, so to speak, will require change. I came to the place that I knew I had to change the way I think.

When I was younger my father told me that if I had lemons, I should make lemonade. I looked around at my circumstances and thought, “ok! here are my lemons. Now, I must make lemonade.” I own a house, a vehicle, and a bunch of stuff that I can sell to accommodate some things. The main thing is that I changed the way I was looking at my situation and my situation changed. The changing afforded me the ability to see the picture differently.

I took my rather expensive car and traded it in on something more manageable. It saved my $60 per month via insurance and payment and it’s a car known not to have a crap ton of problems. I began doing upgrades to my home, such as painting, new blinds, and some other things to enhance the selling of it. I do not owe a ton on it and can make enough from it to carry me for a while if that is necessary to realizing a new life. I started posting things online to sell to pay the bills I currently have. These are my lemons and I am making lemonade. Thanks, Dad!

I am now on a new journey into a much more fulfilling and lovely life. I am at the beginning of that journey and will keep you posted. My new career, I decided, would be a traveling writer. The blogging business is brand new to me. So is the traveling. I will also be doing photography to add a bit of flair to my life. I have loved photography for decades. I was always trying to figure out how to afford it. Not worried about that anymore. The technology age has afforded it for me.

I look forward to keeping anyone interested updated on my new adventure. Stay tuned!!!

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30 Mar

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